max225 wrote: ↑Tue Nov 05, 2019 5:22 pm
Johnny_P wrote: ↑Tue Nov 05, 2019 5:19 pm
Went for a drive. Don't know why, it was pointless. It's just not enjoyable to drive around here anymore. Really need to get rid of the STI.

mang... you've been talking about this for over a year. What is stopping you?
That I'm depressed and my life isn't what I want it to be.
I just got back from a week in Houston and then a few days in Joshua Tree for my brother's wedding. People were asking me about how my job was going and the honest answer is it's fucking stupid. How's Philly was the next question, and the answer was that it pretty much is blah at this point and I'm ready to move out of the area. Didn't help that Joshua Tree was gorgeous and the drive to/from was through the middle of fucking nowhere with roads that are in much better shape than anything I drive around here.
Also just being flat out overwhelmed with stuff that's available and not caring to own anything in the category I'd want to buy in, if that makes any sense at all. Like, I want a dopey automatic good on gas aintcaremobile that rides nice, handles decently well, 4+ doors, quiet, decent stereo, prefer AWD, etc. And literally nothing is exciting about that. The Hyundai I rented was close I guess.
Go test drive stuff, sure, I have anxiety about that. I hate doing it so much it's inexplicable. Ends up being a colossal waste of time and a bunch of pressure to buy something that I could literally not give two shits about.
I hate being depressed.